Wednesday, Mar. 30, 2005

AGH.

AGH.

I am so sorry about my delayed entries. Although I highly doubt any one misses them at all but oh well. Well I don't know if I let anyone know but I am graudating in August. Well I hope I am. I just saw that the class I need to graduate has been cancelled. Don't these people know that students rely on things being there for them in order to fulfill their future and lifelong dreams? And what do they do? They up and cancel the fucking class. Now I have to go talk to the dean and AGH. It is so irritating. But... um... yeah.

My life is pretty boring. I have become one of those people who have like fallen in love with someone she can't have. Like literally he is locked up. What the fuck is wrong with me??? I have to like these dudes that I can't have, plus we have only been communicating through letters, never even seen each other. That makes me sound so much better doesn't it? But I am on this strict diet regime now only drinking waters, watching what I eat for the first time in my life, and I am going to start an exercise program next week. So I am all set up huh?

Man I just though about it. If I can't take this spanish class they are going to want me to wait another semester to graduate and then I can double major but I don't want to wait another semester. I have had my little bitty heart set on graduating in August. AGH.

I know it has been like a gazillion years since I updates but I decided to get back in the game you could say. I have a lot to say but ya know its not that great.

I am having these massive mood swings, my stomach is constantly hurting, and I am always hungry. My breasts are dry, itchy, and peeling. Yeah I know not too great is it. People are telling me they are signs of the worse; pregnancy. Yeah I know it is not the "worse" I guess you can say being since women get pregnant all the damn time, however, I am only 22, I am still in college, I am not married, and above all, the thing worse than being pregnant itself (if there could be such a thing) is the fact that I would not really know who the father was. Yeah so not only would I have an illegitimate child but I would be a damn slut.

Fuck.