Monday, Nov. 08, 2004

I'm a bitch like that.

I'm a bitch like that.

Im sitting here wondering, "does anyone even notice my absence from this lovely creature? Does anyone even read me? Or am I just wasting my time? Even though I hardly ever update on this thing."

So you do? Yeah you. Do you read me? Good, cause I'm not that interesting. I have been feeling very down in the dumps lately. Depressed, that's me. I Have all this shit going on. School, some guy with a girlfriend yet he still manages to sleep with me and I let him, and then work is kicking my tired ass to the ground.

The good thing? School is almost over, so when I rwite my cagillion papers I'll be done. Work won't be as bad because school will be over so I will have more time for sleep. Next semester is going to be super easy because I am only taking 13 hours and I am only going 3 days a week.

But, I am still stuck with the guy-who-thinks-he-is-is-love-with-his-girlfriend-yet-he-is-still-sleeping-and saying he cares about me. So yeah. What is a girl to do? Well I know what a normal undepressed girl who isn't lonely all the time would do. Drop him like a bad fucking habit. But I am a depr4essed lonley all the time type of gal, so what am I going to do? Stick it out, hope he chooses me over her sooner or later, and just let the tide do its thing. Maybe she will find out and it will make it all easier for me. But am I going to tell her? No. And why? Because she is like one of my good friends, and I think I hurt her enough just by doing it. I don't think I could bear myself if I actually have to tell her and watch her emotions in front of me. I want it done behind my back.

Yeah I am a bitch like that.