Wednesday, Jan. 15, 2003
Fuck and be merry I say.
Fuck and be merry I say.
Hey, About a Boy came out on DVD today. I just HAVE to buy that DVD. I mean I have absolutely no money at all to be spenind on luxuries such as DVDs and CDs but I will buy it nonetheless. Somehow someway me and Hugh is going to get tight. Plus I am on a mission to buy the Good Charlotte CD. I don't know just had to be said I guess.
In good news, I bought a pregnancy test today. Thank god that is all over with. I came out with a conclusion, one of my liking. One to where I don't have to worry about putting some kid through college in 18 years, or more importantly go through the traumatic pains of labor over in 9 months. So that is good. Plus I don't know what I was talking about the other day about how I think I may have wanted to be pregnant. Because after the results I was somewhat happy that I wasn't. So that must mean something right? I was thinking to myself "how am I going to tell him? What am I going to say?" Man my grandma gave me the biggest hug of her life. She was so happy I wasn't. because, after all, I am the first woman in this family who hasn't been pregnant before she hit 18.
Someone, someone who failed to tell me their name, made a g book entry that made some sense. I do have to disagree on him not respecting me on why he didn't use protection. The reason he used it on that other girl was because she has been with just about everyone one could imagine. Me? Not so. I have limitations. Plus I did not only have sex with him when I was drunk. We have been sober from time to time too. I like to think we have feelings about each other. I don't know for sure, but as I said I like to think we do. If you are reading this now can you email me and tell me who you are. I am happy that this person gave me his/or her advice. But I like to know who they are, because they must read my diary frequently and I thought I knew everyone that read it, I guess I was proven wrong twice today. Never felt so good though.
He must never know though that I was worried about that. That I had that test. I don't want any awkwardness between me and him. I like our relationship the way it is. We are FB's. Fuck buddies. We have sex, get up the next morning, and continue to be friends with no weirdness involved. And that is the way I like it. Fuck and be merry I say. Just don't worry about what I had to worry about the last few days.
However, if I don't start next month I will worry once again. Because isn't that what life is about? A bunch of shit and worrying? Mine is anyway.
Well enough about that. You all can rest assured that nothing like that will happen again. Well, not until I am ready for it though.
Well I worked like 20 hours in 2 days. And I get to work all day again tomorrow. Fun stuff huh? Well I need to do OUR laundry. That's right I am doing his also.
If he only knew how much I liked him.