Monday, Dec. 23, 2002

Shit, I am stupid.

Shit, I am stupid.

Is it Christmas time already? I feel as if it isn't even Christmas. Like it is in two days and I feel nothing. I usually feel all excited and shit but right now all I am thinking about is how I have to be at work in 12 hours and how that is all I ever do now is work work work.

Oh and have sex. Yep I got all sexed up last night. And the most funniest thing EVER happened to me. Well I don't know how funny it is exactly, more like embarassing. Alright people, I am human. Plus last night I was drunk (as you can tell, I don't have much sex unless I am drunk). So when I am drunk I am even MORE human. Well while we (you know who) were having sex I did something HORRIBLE. Like completely fucking HORRIBLE. I farted. Like while we were doing it. It was horrible. And I mean I know people do it all the time, quietly most of them, but the fact that I did it then was just bad bad bad. Plus I woke up this morning feeling stupid. Good thing we play it off the day before, we like to pretend it didn't happen. Yeah that's funny too huh?

My other friend, Mari, turned 21 yesterday. So that is the reason I was drunk. I went partying with her, JimmIE, James, and some other peeps. It was fun, especially since I haven't gone out like that in forever. I mean I have been out with friends, like out to eat, to the movies, stuff like that. But not "partying". You know when drinking is involved and such.

Well Christmas time is right around the corner. Which means family is going to be arriving, which means my grandma is all bitchy about her house looking nice. Damn she gets on my nerves. Christmas day is the only day off I have this week.

I think on Christmas my brother, sister, and I are going to go see the new Lord of the Rings movie. The funny thing is I really wasn't into the first one, but I have to see the second because the first one like didn't END. So I have to see the second to see whats up ya know? It made a shit load of money this weekend, so something must be good about it right?

Shit I just thought about something. I didn't (well HE didn't) use protection last night. I am just asking to get pregnant aren't I? The funny thing is, that even though I say I want a baby, I don't. Shit I can't even take care of myself yet, I know I couldn't take care of a baby. Shit, I am stupid.