Saturday, Dec. 14, 2002

But a baby... awwwww.

But a baby... awwwww.

Aw man I wanted to write this entry on Friday the 13th. How cool was that? I mean nothing all extra ordinary happened like with superstitions or anything, but totally cool nonetheless. Man I know there was some "Primetime" thing on or something that I wanted to watch tonight. I don't remember what it was. If someone knows, or watched it (it was supposed to be one of those "Barbara Walters/Diane Sawyer" type of things) tell me.

I used to get all into Friday the 13th. Like I would watch all those old movie channels with all the scary movies you know? There was always marathons on with all the Friday the 13th movies, or Halloween movies or something. But I never have the time anymore. Oh well.

On a truly funny note take a look at this. Man I am a sucker for quizzes.

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Hah. I told you all you were like my best friends, didn't I?

Well anyway, my life is one boring hellwhole. I don't do anything anymore. And that is because I usually go out on the weekends or something. But I work eraly all weekend so I am trying to be all responsible and go to bed at a decent hour without a alochol level of 1.6470 percent.

Aw and I hung out with my friend JimmIE all day today. I almost felt like we were a couple. He followed me around all day. That was mainly because he didn't want to be alone with my grandma, but it was cool anyway. I was making little comments all day about having sex and he always blew them off. And I swear a funny conversation happened. I said something about having sex and something else and he was like "don't make fun of my disability". Then I said "what about you not knowing how to have sex?" He was just like "WHAAAA?" Hah it was funny. But it was cool hanging out with him. We didn't do much but it was fun. Now it wouldn't have happened if his truck didn't break down and he didn't have anywhere else to go but that's ok.

I asked him if he would have my baby and he got all shocked. I don't think it was because he would have to have sex with me (I mean that never bothered him before) but because of the whole "wanting a baby thing." I do want a baby, and if I have one I think I would want it to be with him. Is that so bad? Maybe I like him more than I think I do. But a baby... awwwww.

Like I know it is a lot of responsibility but they are just so cute. And I have a whole philosophy on how I want my life to be. I mean it goes in chronological order. Like this...

1. Graduate college.

2. Get a job (hopefully start my career).

3. Get married (hopefully with JimmIE).

4. Have a baby (same as above).

5. Live married life happy as can be.

I think I just wanna grow up already. I am already 20, to many people at 20 they wbere already grown up. But I am still going to school. I mean I haven't even finished number one on my list yet. I am going to call that list my "shit to do" list. I mean it is very important shit but I have to do it.

Why live a life without people around you who love you to share it with?