Tuesday, Dec. 10, 2002
I wanna be a star MOTHERFUCKING member!!!
I wanna be a star MOTHERFUCKING member!!!
Oh my fucking god!!!! I wrote a whole entry, and it was long too, about me. About ME! And I hit a little X somewhere on my screen, and BAM it was gone!!! And it was so long!!! Shit I will do it again, I guess. Since I have nothing else to do. And shit it was a lot of stuff. This is going to take a while. Shit I hate the conveneince of just being able to close anything like that. I think it should be more like Word or Works ya know? Where when you hit the "x" it asks if you "are sure" or if you "want to save it." Yeah Andrew should invest in something like that. That would be cool.
So as I was saying...
I have the day off tomorrow. Which is totally cool. I can just lay around all day and do absolutely nothing. How cool is that? I think I might like clean my car or something. Or like vacuum it, or armorol (however you spell it) or something. I am glad I have days like these. Especially since I will be working my ass off from Thursday until Sunday.
Oh, and I don't know how much I write about my brother in here but he said he is going to stop drinking. Stop laughing. No seriously stop. I know its funny. It took me a while too. And the funnier part, he was trying to get someone to buy him beer tonight. Like right after he said he wasn't going to drink anymore. Yeah funny shit. What maked me mad about the whole thing though is that he is mainly stopping drinking on work days because of his girlfriend that he just got back together with. Now, he said he is doing it for himself too, but I think it is more for her. That makes me mad because I don't think a person should have to change themselves for someone else. I mean it would be like me changing my looks by losing weight because someone wants me too. Now if you love me you should love me for who I am. I nkow I certainly wouldn't stop drinking for someone. I mean I just love it too much. And, anyway I probably met this person while I was drinking. He was probably cuter than too. After those beer goggles wore off he probably turned into some toad or something. So fuck him if he thinks I have an alcohol problem.
Note: That sounded totally hypocritcal of me, don't you think? Didn't mean to sound that way. I am not shallow. But, I (like millions of other people) do see what a person looks like. But I also take into account their personalities.
Speaking of which I signed up for this thing a while back called, Hot or Not. Yeah I know, I am corny. Just call me corny Becky. The ironic part? I got this site from Uncle Bob's diary. Now he was making fun of it. Like, because most people only sign up for this to get rated. To boost up their egos. Not me. I mean I don't just welcome disappointment at my front door step you know? I signed up for this to get to meet people. Yeah sorta like a personal thing. Corny corny corny. But a lot of hotties really want to meet me. Like this hottie. He is close to my area. Only like 45 minutes away. There is also the hottie that lives further away, in East Texas. And last but not least, the Kentuck-IAN hottie. Yeah I probably won't ever get to meet him. But the one that is only like 45 minutes away. Yeah so the sucky part is that these dudes do want to meet me, but we can't send out emails because you have to be "star members". You know what that means? You have to have cash-ola willing to spend upon meeting people. Yeah I love meeting people, especially HOT people, but I am not willing to spend money on it, when I can do it where I am at. But these hotties can be subjects of my fantasies and desires for a while. At least until one of us dishes up some money to become star members anyways.
Fuck, who am I fooling? I wanna be a star MOTHERFUCKING member!!! So I can meet and have hot lucious sex with some hotties who likes chunky girls. Who are infatuated with some meat on women's bodies. Wo want my womanly loving, allllllll of it. All 200 something pounds of it. Who aren't afraid of me getting on top. Yeah that's what I want. And shit if I have to pay like 50 bucks a year for it, so I can become a STAR MEMBER, the by dammmit I will. If I had the money that is.
Shit, what did I just write? Sorry guys. Sorry I put you through hell just now. Ya know I luv ya'll. I wouldn't do it intentionally.