Thursday, Aug. 29, 2002

I'm fortunate to know him.

I'm fortunate to know him.

As usual, Ryan had an excellent entry today. I like this boy a little bit more after every entry I read of his. His story on how he came out is extraordinary and very descriptive. It made me think about my life, again. It made me think that if I am gay how am I going to tell people? It further made me hope that when, or if, I tell my friends, that they will be as supportive as his was to him. It is amazing. You never know just how good your friend is until you challenge them with something such as that. Friends are a great thing to have and I find myself, as I am sure Ryan finds himself, lucky to have them.

I have talked to my mom though about how I might, or might not, be gay. Ultimately I know she doesn't want me to be but I know that when the time comes to tell her she will be totally supportive. And I don't have to worry about a father figure to tell, mainly because I don't have one.

All this reminds me of the book I am currently reading, which I recommended to Ryan also. The one by Chastity Bono. It is such a great book to read for someone who is feeling like I am. For someone who is not too sure if they are gay or not, for someone who is not sure how to handle the feelings, how to tell people how they are feeling. I think Ryan and I both can greatly learn from that book.

I honestly think I look up to Ryan. He has been through a lot it seems. Going through what he has and telling people about himself. It is hard. And he is a brave person, even though he might not think it. He is a great person, and even though I just started reading him I find myself fortunate to know him.

Well I just made another whole little page here totally dedicated to my QAF fanlistings and fanfic sites. Yeah, I know I'm pathetic.