Wednesday, Aug. 07, 2002

it's over

it's over

He keeps on calling. Non stop. Does he not get the picture? He may like me, but do I like him? Do I like any guys at all?

Am I even normal? What do I want? Who am I? Am I here for a purpose? What am I supposed to do on this world? Who do I like? What gender am I focused on? Am I gay? Do I like girls? Do I have the nerve to even go over to the other side and check it out for myself? What will they say? What will my mom say? My grandmother? My friends? They all say they will understand, but will they? Can they come to terms that someone so close to them may be something that is not "normal" in their eyes? Can they accept that? Will they be able to accept me? Accept the choices I am making? Or will I just fade away? Will I just leave the picture infintely?

They will never look at me the same again.